Looking For Acceptance

They hit like bullets

Words sharp as flint
But ten times stronger
It feels like forever
But I must endure longer

It takes my breath away

A sucker punch to the gut
A left hook to the head
They're just wishes
Wishes I were dead

It's fading to black

I'm losing consciousness
'Cause I'd rather not know
What this world has for me
I'd really rather go

There's a light at the end

I'm going out of range
Of what they have to say
It may be lonely
But it's better this way

I'm lying on my face

I know I should stay
But I feel no one cares
If I cared enough myself
I could meet the stares

I'm looking away

Maybe the grass is greener
On the other side
But am I ready
To cross that line?

I'm afraid

And is it enough?
To feel lost and scared
I'm scared! I don't want
To admit I care

My hands are trembling

I don't want to do this
I never wanted any of this!
But with the barrel upheld
Death's may be my first kiss

His arms are always open